We’ve gone from 90 degree days here to cozy, rainy ones in a week. I’m 33 weeks pregnant, and the new season of fall is quickly approaching, so symbolic of a new season of motherhood that is creeping my way. Being a mother of two toddlers is a lot. Being a mother of two toddlers while pregnant is a lot. Soon, I will have two toddlers and an infant in my arms. It feels like the days are creeping by at a snail pace. I want so badly to not be pregnant anymore, have my baby safe in my arms, and to feel like I can move and run again. Yet, I forget to ask myself, “am I ready for the seasons to change?” At the first couple days of fall-like weather, we welcome the boots, jackets and cozy cookies, but are we really ready for the swimming, sandy toes, water wings and barbeques to end?! I’m not, and I’m not sure I’m ready for the end of a mother-of-two-boys to a mother-of-three-boys. Worry and anxiety can quickly take your mind down treacherous paths of “can I do this?” “how will I survive my all these boys?…” I fight the thoughts of doubt with the Word. I find verses and God’s guidance to bring me security, faith and joy in these times of change and unknowing.
Looking at Daniel 2:21-22 “And He changes the times and seasons, HE removes kings and raises up kings; He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding. He reveals deep and secret things…”
There is a goodness and purpose with changing seasons. God creates this on purpose for us in our lives. We are uncomfortable on purpose, because God has a goal for us to grow. Growing pains are soothed when we see the deep secrets he reveals in new seasons. New seasons bring forth wisdom and growth for His purpose. That is what I take when I read the Word in places like Daniel. He is in control. He blesses us with times and seasons to give us understanding and knowledge. We can look forward to the challenges and leaving behind the old to embrace the new secret knowledge God has in store for us to learn.
I’m not totally sure the secrets God has in store for me as the new little one approaches. Maybe learning to use my leg as a third arm? I’m sure patience will be mixed in there. There will also be change for Benjamin and Jack, which I will have to facilitate and soothe. Switching your mind to see a new season as new knowledge, new learning and God’s perfect timing eases the longing for the old season.
Look also at Ecclesiastes 3:1 “To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven; A time to be born, a time to die’ A time to plant, and a time to pluck what is planted. A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to break down, and a time to build up. A time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing…” I encourage you to read through this piece. There is a time and purpose for the season you are in, and there will be a new season coming. Embrace the new season coming because there is a purpose and secrets to be revealed, all in His plan!
On a lighter note, I am attempting to enjoy the last few days of this season before the challenges of a new season heads our way. We are spending a lot of our time at parks, and I am obsessed with this dress because it is comfy, casual and totally #boymomfriendly! Can you believe there’s a 33-week bump under there? Its because its loose, and it has the top ruffle that really just hides a little basketball like I’ve never seen! I always have to be prepared to run after these wild animals, so I always knot the front. That way I don’t face-plant if I need to do an impromptu sprint. The jacket is from Guess, and its white, so we’ll see how long it stays that way, but its super comfy too!